You make me smile now baby,
Ohhh i can tell you everything about me
And well i know you won’t try to change me,
And all the while, i am aware, how you still love me fully,
Spread love and light to my soul each day,
And push the negative energy away
Understanding I’m discovering me.
Still not sure who i want to be…
But when we dance and sing
It all feels alright,
3 minute bliss to hold me over till the night.
And i feel my soul light up when you look me in the eyes.

and I’ve been searching, looking, digging for salvation,
Tore up the deserts and found time for meditation
And now I got what i want,
Its just not enough
Its just not enough
Cause you’re never enough!

And i find gratitude
everytime i think of you
Each minute lived
is treasured like a raccoon cheez-it feast
And i love you
All of you
Each part of you
Till the end.

And the others mean so much,
You accept my need for floating love
And you’re number one…..
polyamouric.
freedom.
Sun.

Mmmm i feel like a woman, beautiful, powerful, unstoppable

I don’t give a fuck! It’s play time without the rules :P you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to but you can do whatever you want to do when you want to do it

I’m so lost and confused! I, have no answers, none at all. I am numb. I feel nothing. happiness is the easiest emotion to portray. We all dream of it. We all desire it. Creatures of habit. Why! Why!!!! Can’t you give a sign universe!! one way or the other? I am not strong enough! i admit i like it sometimes…. But only for a minute. I give up, sorry but there is no changing this Decision. I cannot continue. Not today, not tomorrow, you deserve better. I cannot receive your love graciously. I’m sorry you love me so much. I’m incapable of returning it. May your days be filled with growth. May your days be filled with happiness. Now is just not the time for us. I wish you the best. And once again, i apologize…. I am not what you seem. My demons follow closely behind. So do yours. And this may not be forever. I am sick. Terrible. I am sorry. You have faults. I am weak. We learn alone.

Faith is taking the first step when you can’t see the entire stair case. Love is walking up the rest of the stairs and not wishing to see the top

i’m sorry,

i need to know the answers

no one can give me with certainty

and i’m sorry

my voice chokes with negativity

closes u p completely

and i wish i could give you a tour of my mind

i’m leaving you alone in the darkness

at least mine is confined within me

your eyes show terror for th future

whats next to come?

and i’m just overwhelmed by day to day activities

by choice and extremities

inside my skin is chaos uncontrollably

choking me.

The person who i was when we met has blossomed a little more

could be something to do with 11 years

could be something to do with two broken hearts

trying to find a piece to complete

to make whole again.

i’m missing the part where i make myself whole first.

so are you.

i’m just trying to figure out this game of life,

no regrets except the roads not taken

and you’ve got all these plan for your own life for our future

and i’m not sure of tomorrow.

and broken promises hurt more then nothing spoken at all

i’m sorry i close down, shut you out completely

i don’t like the way i’m feeling

but please don’t keep pushing, trying to break the cover

i’ve been working on it for years

and i still don’t have enough answers

and with that comes numbness.

lacking all feelings good and bad,

an empty mind

a meditative state

an escape.

it’s either nothing or everything at once

a metamorphisis of the soul, mind, and body

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Verse 1

I never promised you a ray of light, I never promised there’d be sunshine everyday, I give you everything I have, the good, the bad. Why do you put me on a pedestal, I’m so up high that I can’t see the ground below, So help me down you’ve got it wrong, I don’t belong there.
Chorus: One thing is clear, I wear a halo, I wear a halo when you look at me, But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so You wouldn’t say so, if you were me And I, I just wanna love you, Oh oh I, I just wanna love you
Verse 2 I always said that I would make mistakes, I’m only human, and that’s my saving grace, I fall as hard as I try So don’t be blinded See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin, So pull me from that pedestal, I don’t belong there. Chorus: One thing is clear, I wear a halo, I wear a halo when you look at me, But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so You wouldn’t say so, if you were me And I, I just wanna love you, Oh oh I, I just wanna love you Why you think that you know me But In your eyes I am something above you It’s only in your mind Only in your mind I wear a I wear a I wear a Halo One thing is clear, I wear a halo, I wear a halo when you look at me, But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so You wouldn’t say so, if you were me And I, I just wanna love you, Oh oh I, I just wanna love you Haaaa ha-ha halo (x9)

Bethany Joy Lenz (Galeotti)